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for what the fxck would i know those were considered insult for what the fxck would i know you were angry or even sad about those considered insults, if not for bhs to come and tell me that YOU are angry with me, for what the fxck would i have known, i've alrd apologise i know nothing big fxck bout it but at least AT LEAST immediately when i knew, i went home aftr schl, i posted an apologise post for you, so for what the fxck do you expect from me? im not like god to fxckingly know you're feeling discomfort bout it. for what the fxck will i know you're under such pressure, so what if my mum doesnt give me pressure to do well for PSLE, you think i dont feel stressed at all? look, we all have our obsticles in life, and we have to LEARN to overcome it and not rant about your life, you should have known me enough tht i have my time when i think my online friends are so fxcking much better than my rl friend, but what could i do, at least when im feeling sad or w/e i posted to see who cared or at least drop a hint, i can truely speak and tell everyone tht, i have been treating all my friendds nicely, when they felt left out i was thr, provided i know. then when you were angry or when you felt tht tht was an insult why didnt you speak out why didnt you talked to me about it. neither did you post it on your blog. i've always been going out w you and even listening to your rants and you've been listening to mine too, and so i believe i could trust you, and me without even backstabbing or even having the starting mind to "insult" you, have been backstabbed by you and im so utterly dissapointed in you. when did i not gace a fxcking damn to you, you are the one who made me feel other then yuetyan tingen and mag, my compassion friends have turn on a cold wall towards me without ME KNOWING WHAT I DID WRONG, you know, not only you feel helpless, i felt tht too, and i also felt the way you felt whr virtual world friends they have so much time to give you their attention unlike RL friends, but let me tell you, virtual world friends are just virtual world, bcos they are from virtual world, you dont expect them so much, unlike rl friends much higher expectations, thts why they are better than you. the kind of friends we want to mix with the kind of path we want to take is up to us and i dont believe in influence, bcos why does ppl usually have bad influence instead of good one, bcos the influence you're getting, is what you chose.